Change of plans… I have an idea and now to execute it. No more of this.

I wish sincerely it could go back to how it was…. it hurts.. I miss her so….

I’ve lost interest in playing games. It hurts a lot and I just want it to stop honestly. I don’t know how to deal with this. I do have a few ideas that might make it stop hurting but I’ll just have to suffer the consequences of my actions if I do. I’m pretty desperate to make it stop. I don’t have much appetite and my hands shake. I honestly don’t know what to do besides work and sleep. I’ll try working out. I’ll begin the process of preparing to feed my Id in the time to come. I just wish I didn’t have to do this..

I should use this again but as a catalogue I suppose. To keep record of the effects my latest project has on me.

croptop2014:

j5h:

imagine having sex with a ghost and then someone walks into your room and they see your asshole widening and narrowing for no reason

imagine praying to God and going to church

automatically:

when your parents cancel your plans and you’re like “fine”